Family Support

I have mentioned before in my posts how important I feel it is to have support from your family while going through the mind blowing, body ripping, emotionally draining fight that can be Endometriosis.
Now I say "family" but this dynamic can come in all shapes and forms. You don't need to be blood related to be family.

Family to me are the people who love you unconditionally but will put you up on your bull without qualms. They are the ones who will comfort you and laugh wildly with you at inappropriate things. They never judge you, but accept you for who you are and you likewise them.

For me, my family are the ones who I can be 100% open with. I'm not afraid of who I am with them. My illness is not a seen as a weakness but when I have bad days there us no guilt there. I guess it's acceptance of who I am, entirely. My quirky sense of humour, shyness, choice language and intense passion for Rugby are all parts that join up to make me the person I am and to not have to answer for that is to feel safe and wanted.

It makes going through this battle with my body more bearable. When I feel as if the pain will never end and like pieces of me are literally being torn apart. When I'm burning up or passing out or my legs refuse to hold me anymore because all of me energy is focused on getting past this, getting through and for me avoiding the hospital because I am sick and tired of the "routine", knowing I have the love and understanding of my family, my supporters, the people I would trust with my life really does make all the difference for me.

Even if you only have one person that you feel this way about. It's one person who completely understands you and accepts you for you and that is priceless.

Enjoy the good times.

I'm writing this post feeling ecstatic as Ireland have just won the Six Nations Championship Rugby.

It was a close game, fantastic rugby and with all three final matches on over the one day quite a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I have the pleasure of sharing my passion for Rugby with my Mum and I wasn't in pain yesterday so it was fantastic to be able to enjoy something as simple as that. Although it was edge of the seat, on our feet screaming at the end, clapping and hugging each other like we'd just won a war. It was great to have this memory and know that my Endo for once had no part in the day. It's just a lovely, positive day to remember. It's also pretty cool that it fell on the weekend of St. Patrick's Day. Another reason to wear the green and be proud to be Irish.

At the moment I am doing well pain wise. I have a few niggles but I'm holding my own. I do feel very drained and my shoulders are heavy but I like to keep positive and enjoy these moments as much as I can. Endo is pretty much always going to be there whether it's right in your face screaming for attention or its in the background taunting you, waiting to make its move. We need to stay mentally strong when fighting this illness. I know there are days, weeks even months where we will feel it will never end but it is truly amazing what your mindframe can do to keep you fighting fit. I don't mean to sound preachy in the slightest. It's just something I've figured out over the years. Our bodies are built to withstand an awful lot and I for one would rather fight till the final whistle than put ny head down and admit defeat.

Love to my Endo Sister's, my family and friends XxxxX