Mini Rant (not enough energy for a full one)

It's 20:00 here in Dublin, Ireland and to be quite honest I have been about as useful today as a butter knife to a T-bone. Since last night I've been in a considerable amount of pain which over the day has been exhausting every inch of me. At this very moment my back aches, my pelvis obviously, my thighs, shoulders evenot down to my ankles are sore. I feel like someone came in a kicked me around for a while without my knowledge. Or lije I'm being slowly squeezed out by thorns or wire of some sore. It's sharp, pointy evil shooting pain. This picture actually helps a little to describe it.

I know this may read like a massive whine and plead for sympathy but do not mistake me. When you feel like you have a dozen knives slicing through you and ten hands tearing you apart all while you try not to vomit, keep taking in fluids and cling onto your last bit of sanity so you don't pass out, the last thing you're looking for is someone staring at you with an "oh you poor thing" face. Girl power and all but ease.up a little lads.

I pledged to keep writing especially on the bad days when the pain is freshly in my mind so I'm afraid you're all getting it both barrels. There have been comments on my FB page of the same name as tjis blog saying some very supportive and sweet thisng's. One word that keeps cropping up however is "brave". It's not brave to show my face through this process. I think rather you, the reader, are the brave one, you don't know what you're about to witness or read. It's my goal to spread awareness about Endometriosis so we need to stop hiding and end the silence.

I am utterly shattered so I am going to bid you farewell for now and I'll update soon.

New Perspective

This post has been on my mind for a little while now but with my attention being focused on events last week I just haven't got round to it until now. This year so far for me has been very fortunate. I've,touch wood, not needed to attend the hospital or the ER and my Endo has generally been at a tolerable level. Obviously some days are worse than others,we all know how it goes.

Through my writing and general talking, spreading awareness about Endometriosis I've made a lot of friends, Endo Sister's and contacts with various charities. However, recently I've been dating a very charming, handsome, interesting man. (I won't list too many things here or I will get off point) We have been communicating for quite some time now and from the beginning of our friendship, earlier on this year,he knew all about this blog and my efforts to organise a Mini March for Endo. It's refreshing to be able to go on a date and not feel like you have this big secret that people will judge you by. For me anyway it's rare that I find men to be forwardly curious about Endo. I have a few close friends who would know what it is from obviously over the years being around me but never straight from the get go. It's interesting. refreshing and slightly relieving all at the same time. (Although I could be just mesmerised by his accent, he's half French. We'll see.)

I don't know about anyone else but I've gotten very strange reactions to my Endo. One friend stopped talking to me after she gave birth saying she thought it would be too weird for me to be around considering I was told at the time I couldn't conceive. The prognosis has since changed for me but the friendship suffered greatly.

I don't like to be treated like a fragile piece of glass that will shatter at the slightest touch. People don't need to walk on eggshells but it's funny how they react.

I digress. So, we were talking about my fundraising and Endo Awareness and he (the spellbinding accent guy)was very interested to just know more about why it's not being made as publicly known as it should be. It was an intellectual conversation not an "oh poor you with the dodgy womb" conversation.

One night after we were chatting he sent me a YouTube link. It was a lecture been given about Endometriosis and the link between a lack of iodine being the cause.

If you simply Google, Iodine, Endometriosis, you will find a ton of legit page's of research stating that it stands a good chance of curing Endo.

I found this link below myself. They state that if Iodine can cure Fibrocystic Breast to Disease then it can cure Endometriosis.
http://curezone.org/faq/q.asp?a=13,281,2962&q=595

There's no harm in looking for alternatives. I feel that people will enter and exit your life when they are meant to and if nothing else this has given me an entire new perspective on my approach towards alternative remedies.

As always, stay strong.

Xxxx