(I wouldn't mind but it kind of gave me a few hours off yesterday. I was able to go out and had a very enjoyable evening with a lovely gentlemen, a story for another time perhaps )
Anyway, I've had quite a bit of pain on my left ovary for some time now but over the last two weeks I seem to have a lot of episodes with cysts "popping". My legs literally turn to jelly and at times I have passed out from the pain. Today however I kept myself aware. I did not faint. But I am in quote a lot of pain. It's the really frustrating part of this illness. That you can make all the plans you want but in the end if something happens physically there's not a lot you can do. It can make you feel helpless at times but this is when I believe we need to have a positive attitude. I know that this pain is only temporary. I know that it will pass and I know that I will have many more good days ahead. It's tough sometimes when you feel like you ate letting people down because your body is letting you down but as my very wise Sister said to me "It's not like you deliberately popped a cyst". She can put things into perspective for me when I get anxious and worry to much of the effect I'm having on my family.
My family are just so so supportive it cannot possibly be described effectively. My Mum even has offered to March for me if I'm unable to go tomorrow. Now there's no way in hell I'm missing my own event but it's the unconditional love that comes at no cost that just overwhelms me. Of course like any family we nit pick and debate even sometimes row but the bond between the three of us is something that a lot of people cannot understand but I have found so many are curious about it.
It's not even really an Endo issue because, thankfully my Sister has not been diagnosed although we do keep a watchful eye on her for any symptoms. I feel we have been together in past lives and just this time our dynamic us Mother, Sisters and Daughters but we also have the capability of talking to each other as best friends and confidants which is invaluable when you need to discuss your health mental or physical.
I just wanted to share this because on days like today it makes me truly appreciate who I have in my life and it also makes me realise why I've kept them in my life and let others go.
Wild horses won't keep me from going tomorrow.
Love to my Endo Sister's and Warriors XxxX
I love this because I was and still am to a degree that girl. :-)
